Voice Recognition - This Is Saving My Butt

This is really working. I am getting better at knowing what to say and when/how to say it. A simple thing I discovered today really helps, for the letters of the alphabet, when you're spelling something, you can say "Alpha", "bravo", "Charlie", "Delta"... That really helps.

While I know I'm working slower, I am not getting as fatigued.I really feel the pain when I try to type or use the mouse. I don't know how I worked for so long like that. I'm actually amazed at how bad it was, and the persistence that I did have.

I dealt with it by trying new things. Usually, the new thing worked. By worked, it wasn't necessarily physical. It is hard to say. Some things were obvious. However, whatever new "fix" I gave, it usually shifted the problem somewhere else. For instance, from a numb pinky finger to a sore wrist.

I am surprised my body hasn't simply revolted against my will. It is funny. I think I grew numb to the pain. While it was there, I think I learned to tune it out, and was just left with a sense of "something is wrong". I can feel the pain now. It is so stupid. So simple. It explains a lot. Just pain.

I could still be wrong. I think there is a Heisenberg effect with self-diagnosis.

I'm so thankful to work in a place where my coworkers have been more than understanding. I've had nothing but encouragement and slack.

I'm a crazy mix when it comes to connection. I'm terribly noncommittal-committal. I'm intensely there and strangely absent. I don't think the pain has much to do with that. I don't know how anybody puts up with me. I think it is because I depend too much on my whacked out mood. I have no idea what tomorrow's going to be like. All I can say is that if I can do it tomorrow than I really will do. If I get going, I'll fight to not stop because I know while I have momentum I have to get done.

Suppose I ought to shut up. This is fun, yacking into my computer.