Dissonance And Clarification

I got a lot of feedback (not just the comments, but e-mail and live real human comments here in the Netherlands) with a post I did a couple days ago. I decided to change:

The problem is that I think I relax best when I peg the speedo at 184 or something like that.

to the following:

I like looking over the edge and feeling like I could if I wanted to. It´s more alive. There´s a striking difference between the beautifully manicured villages here, like Nuenen, compared to the thriving seedy downtown Eindhoven. It´s embracing both that causes this dissonance, like pop Nirvana.

And I´ll add, it´s managing the safety and security while taking risk, and offering the potential, which yields growth. It´s offering security where it´s needed and not confusing liberty with the lotto or a hurricane, but allowing it and working like heck to inform (and helping). It´s giving security for those who ask, or who can´t ask, in ways that make sense. Lotta work.

What would I do with the liberty to do just about anything I wanted? Would I spiral into an abyss? Would my daughter? What about spiralling abysses?

It´s funny that I fear myself and assume given liberty I´d choose self destruction, but over and over again things keep sprouting and flowers, like Van Gogh´s sunflowers, keep popping up...

Well night night :)

Wait a second... it´s only 1:00am ;)