I have not spoke much about my little company, Spoonbill. There is some cooking in the background. I will not mention any specifics right now.
September is the last month of the fiscal year. Kim has been handling setting up a group insurance plan. They are going to Disney World in a couple days. Two days after that we were all going to the Netherlands. In between there I've got to get my hours in and set things up contractually.
Businesswise, I am very ignorant. I'm not the gee-golly ignorant. I am somewhere in between head in the sand and going with what's there. I have not counted too much. I want to make something happen. I'm not even sure what that something is. Somehow, with all that is lacking, something is emerging. It is exciting. I am enjoying the connections behind the scenes. The bank is a meaningful institution. The insurance agent is on our side. The ones who draw up contracts have an important job. It is interesting.
At this point, as with every day, it seems as if the whole thing could vanish. I don't feel an ownership or even much a part of it. Spoonbill's conception was so random. It is all so funny.
But I am there now. And I am pretty loyal in the sense that once something is started, I want to invest in it. But the "it" isn't known. It's wanting to see it unfold. It is hard to explain.
I guess I am blogging in order to try and understand my own motivations. Why did I ever start a business? Given the freedom, it was like it was my only choice. Maybe I have no business having a business, but that's my own business. I don't know. Like I said, it is all so funny.
2 comments:
I think the difference between you and others is that you are in business for the right reasons...not just to conquer.
Thanks, but I don't think I am in business for the right reason. I don't think I am in for the wrong reason. That is not an excuse. It's also not an attempt to make something deeper.
There is some good business going on. Even what I thought was bad to begin with isn't as bad as I originally thought.
In a lot of ways, I have more respect.
I still get mad though. I still have a bad distrust. For the most part, I don't like big companies. That's a personal preference though. The world might be horribly inefficient without them. the world might collapse without them! However, I'm so glad I don't have to work for one. It gives me the shivers just thinking about dealing with that crap. I am lucky!
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