FM

My mom has some illness which looks to be in the fibromyalgia family. Here is a link to a site about it. I have been struggling with something. The description of fibromyalgia is:

Fibromyalgia (FM) is a chronic pain disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal aches, pain and stiffness, soft tissue tenderness, general fatigue, and sleep disturbances. The most common sites of pain include the neck, back, shoulders, pelvic girdle, and hands, but any body part can be affected. Fibromyalgia patients experience a range of symptoms of varying intensities that wax and wane over time.

The trail that brought me to post this started with this article.

I don't know, I've wondered for a while if that sinking feeling, that feeling something is lost or wrong is due to pain which I've learned to mostly ignore. I wonder if it serves as a backdrop for my experience. It is, if there is an "it", as this sentence suggests, very illusive if even real. I could simply be addicted to something I've yet to try.

Think the problem is self feeding too, like when you are lost and begin to scramble. Restriction tightens more, tenseness stretches and tears. Its best to stop, but the trail must be right there. Jerk the neck this way and that.

And then like magic, no difference on path, all falls in place. No rhyme to it. A single day can cycle. There's no guarantee.

It takes a lot of focus and fortitude to function.