4:00 AM

"Bozac Special, better than it was."
"Bozac Special, better than it was."
"It's a damned Bozac Special, better than it was."
"You got that right, that's a Bozac Special, better than it was."

Is it a "Bozac?" --- why the 'z'? I have to have that wrong. Need to ask Larry, Myles or Mark about that.

As I wrote earlier, "like an ant cutting a steel ball the size of the earth in half with his paw prints as he treads for eternity on the "equatorial trail".  I was on a bunk bed at the Teague's house when Neil told me what eternity was like.

Mix in the Talking Heads.

Actually, I'm fine.

Bozac special, better than it was.
That's a Bozac Special, better than it was.

And all the music is coming back. I forgot about the music. What's it now? I don't even know where this song came from, I just googled something in my head because I didn't know what it was. That's weird. I'm googling something stuck in my head... and found it was a song by "Stone Sour" called "Say You'll Haunt Me".

That's a Bozac Special, better than it was.

The great mix of conversations and thoughts streaming... oh yeah... I remember now...

I see John on his cellphone outside of building 17.  Going over a conversation now.  Flipped.

Is it a gift to be able to recall conversations and string them together over time?

I have to turn off "the faucet". That's the deal. The faucet.  Dang, dude. Maybe I just need those Omega 3 Fatty acids, lol.  The medicine turns off the faucet when I can't take it anymore...

The reason I was good with my former job was because I knew where everybody was at simultaneously and constantly.  Once I know people, I get their opinions (in my head) on different things.  I also get sink holes.  At one point, I had a hundred people talking at once... and they talk with each other too... and the N factorial combination of opinions, thoughts, prejudices become a hum of conversation...

The medicine turns the faucet off.  Only, it turns other things off too.  So, you find you want to be "yourself", sometimes.  Other times, you want it quiet.  Non addictive medicine will not flip the switch fast - more like a frog in a frying pan (I need a better analogy).

Yesterday, with my head down, just by her footsteps, I asked Kim, "What's wrong?"  I am becoming sensitized again.

Together, together we'll be together, together forever
Together, together we'll be together, together forever
Together, together we'll be together, together forever

You know, I should really work with people more.  It's just too intense.  I don't want to.  It'll be more opinions and thoughts.

Damned Bozac Special, better than it was.

You gawt it, better than it was.

--- maybe it's a Bowuz Special

You gawwt it!