Beer May Not Be A Factor

Today was one of the best days I've had in a while.  I told Kim, "You know I'm getting things done, maybe this is like the 4 week breakthrough after quitting the beer-thirty routine."  She said, "Well, you know you just solved that work problem and you did well this morning on your work.  I think that is probably it."

I think Kim is correct.

I've said before that there are plusses to missing beer-thirty, but really when work is going well everything seems in place.

The interesting thing is that I have little supervision.  I'm fairly self managed.  Nobody is ever on my case - except for myself.

So while in a good mood about work, I'll speculate what makes it all bad:

1. When the direction I'm going feels like it is telescoping into a corner
2. When I'm not sure if I'm on a correct trajectory and am trying something out and feel like I am not producing anything worthwhile...
3. When I feel like it's more important to study rather than produce for the longrun and start to hear  little voices saying, "yeah, he's into *frameworks* and *theory*... never does anything anymore"
4. When I see other people doing *real* work and feel out there and think nobody knows how hard I'm trying - harder than I used to, more singular than before - just alone
5. When I'm not plugged in to the day to day but can't be if I want to learn so I can bust through what it is I'm busting through which I can't explain
6.  By not being tangled in the day to day I sometimes feel I'm more likely to lose my job because I could be seen as useless despite the fact that I believe in this time of who-knows-what's-going-on??? --- it's better to dig
7. Being uncertain if what I am learning and doing will ever have an impact
8. Seeing where I'm at and thinking, "Gosh, I was an idiot... Why did it take me so long?"
9. Not being able as an individual to swing things - that is feeling overwhelmed
10. Not being understood and nobody asking
11. By making myself alone in a research mode I lose out on the business opportunities that I might have if I were plugged into programs and stuff
12. Feeling like I'm not really researching but simply catching up with the rest of the world

Those  bullets were written in a happy mood...

Well!  Time for Rockford!