A couple weeks ago I watched a movie. I had Kaley make me an ice pack. My forearms were burning. It wasn't too long ago that I took a trip to Austin. The pain began to subside. But really, the whole week I was there it just gnawed on me. My arms are hurting now actually. Thankfully, the pain is subsiding like the ocean waves after a storm.
I still can't say if it was the pain. I think it is more of the psychological part of it.I guess the problem is twofold. The problem wasn't unbearable. It's a nickel and dime effect. Sometimes the pain would spike really high, but for the most part it is just a matter of compensation.
A simple example of the spike effect is the following: I was asked to basically hack apart a file which visually represents the space shuttle. I love doing stuff like that. To solve the problem there is a lot of trial and error. With anything that involves trial and error, the task is pretty much by definition repetitive. With a computer, it will play with you as fast as you can play with it. It never gets tired either. It is also very difficult to allow a problem to sit when you are incrementally solving it. Maybe it is like walking down a hall where there are a whole bunch of doors. Each door has a riddle.and once you get one door open, you find yourself elated. then you strike the next door. Those kinds of problems take lots of mousing and keyboarding.
Anyways, after solving that problem, I was in a ridiculous amount of pain. I tried making shortcuts. I tried automating things. But no matter, something just kept on telling me, "You can't keep doing this." Actually, "You are not able to do that." It is horribly depressing. It's the only depressing, it is nerve-racking.
It's been going on for four years.
this isn't the only issue. I am undoubtably crazy.
I feel like I'm blabbing about this too much. I haven't got to the more energy, less guilt part.
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